F A B U L O U S !

I know, it sounded stupid. But, I was really happy the last week despite the lack of sleep I have been getting. Talen has been so good and I am going to get him a present for it. I had a good night Friday, My family is going to help us with our car and I couldn't be more thrilled considering how trapped and cabin feverish I have been. My dad's birthday was on Monday and we got together for dinner, the whole family, on Sunday. I love when we all get together, it's always nice to see everyone. I am just talking about my dad, My step-mom Mel, and all my brothers and sisters, all six of us and our two boyfriends. Plus our kids, all two. So it was really nice. Then the last few days have been pretty normal and boring. Have you ever seen the movie LOVERBOY with Kyra Sedgewich? It's really weird but it's actually a pretty good movie. This is the.....Full Synopsis:

A mother once neglected as child but possessed of a heart overflowing with love grows increasingly despondent as her beloved child begins to claim his independence in director Kevin Bacon's adaptation of Victoria Redel's best-selling novel. If loving too much were a crime, well-meaning but overbearing mother Emily (Kyra Sedgwick) would be spending life behind bars with no hope of parole. When Emily was a child, her parents were deeply in love with one another but tragically indifferent to their affection-starved daughter. Now a grown adult with a deep-rooted desire to bear a child, Emily goes to desperate lengths to conceive before eventually giving birth to an exceptionally gifted boy whom she names Paul. Emily's devotion to Paul burns brighter than a thousand suns as she creates a wondrous world of books, music, art, and games to share with her growing child, but her ever more desperate attempts to preserve the purity of their relationship reach a frantic fever pitch as a kindhearted local man opens his life to the pair and Paul prepares for his first year of school. ~ Jason Buchanan, All Movie Guide

If you haven't seen it and it sounds interesting you should go rent it or something. I am a bit of a movie freak.

Anyway, Today I went to breakfast with my friend Mandy at the red apple cafe. I really like the food there. We came back to my house and we watched t.v until the baby got home at two. That's been my day, I know not the most exciting.

I am trying to throw a baby shower for my younger sister, and I need some ideas, like games decorating, invitations, etc. she's having a boy. I just want it to be fun and a little different, and by different I mean unique. So if you have any fun ideas let me know please. I could use any help I can get.

Do you ever think the world has some strange plan or design already pre-selected for each person, starting the day you're born and ending the day your soul leaves the earth? I am starting to think it might be true. Everything happens for a reason, so I'm hoping that all the bad stuff that has been happening in our life just means that something great is going to happen for us soon. For our sake, please direct all your positive energy toward us. Thank you and have a good day.

terrible tuesday!!

Okay, so I had a really long day! As you probably could have told by my post title. I found out that my car is going to take a lot of work to get it fixed. I had to wake up extra early to drop it off at the auto body shop and then found out that it's worse than I had hoped. Then I had to let my evil ex take my poor baby from me. Then I spent the rest of the afternoon cleaning and rearranging the living room. And I still don't feel like I got much of anything accomplished. I am probably not giving myself enough credit for all that I got done. Then when Talen got home He was freaking out, screaming and crying and just having a serious melt down. Then when I finally got him to sleep, I found myself a little bored and I found that a little weird. Then on top of that Alex has school tonight and wont be home until around ten. So, I am going to be not only bored, but tired and sore all by myself. Oh well.
Do you have a t.v show that you are hopelessly addicted to? One that you run home to watch once a week no matter what you are in the middle of? I do too! I hate admitting it, I have to watch One tree hill, every week, and the new season just started last week and it's sooooo good already. Plus I also watch Gossip Girl and I can't wait for the new season of LOST to start! And I like to watch House but that season just ended. I watch way too much t.v don't I?

melonclolly monday

I'm just sitting around at my mom's with my sister and our kids. I'm really bored and finally got Talen to sleep. It was really nice to get out of the house for a change but I know that there were plenty of things I should be doing that I am not. But Mondays are just the one day out of the week that nobody wants to do anything. That's why everybody hates them so much.
It's crazy to see how big my sister Britnee's belly is getting and how grown up my little niece is becoming. It is so crazy how fast time goes by, it seems like it was just yesterday that Carley was born, and it also seems like it wasn't that long ago that Britnee and I were running around town causing all kinds of trouble. I feel like I could blink and my Talen will be all grown up. That's a scary thought.
Anyway, today I went to the park with my mom and my sister Britnee. It was a really nice day for the bulk of the day that is. We had fun running around with the little ones. I am not looking forward to making dinner but I know how good it makes me feel after I get a meal done. So it's worth it.
In a side thought, has anyone ever heard of someone getting pregnant while on the birth control pill? I know I'm just being paranoid because there isn't any signs that I could be but I keep freaking out, I mean I just had a baby and I am no where near ready to go through all that again. Then again....No I'm joking. I don't even know why I keep thinking about it, there isn't any reason for it. Like I said, I'm just being paranoid. But still let me know if you have heard of it happening, because then I will have to figure out some other form of birth control.

my wonderful sunday!

Just sitting around at the house, again! I really hate being so stuck, I mean I know I chose my life and don't get me wrong I love it, at least most of it. I just have my stupid POS car that over heats when you drive more than a mile and that makes it really hard to get out of the house and do anything. So, like I said before I hate being trapped in my house. I have spent the better part of the week inside, and I am starting to get cabin fever. The baby doesn't seem to behave for me but is just fine for everybody else, which is also understandable, he spends almost all his time with me. But I start to feel like I need help. My boyfriend Alex works all week, he leaves at six in the morning and gets home at six or six-thirty at night, so we hardly see each other and he has been working every weekend for the last month just so that we can afford things like our bills and food and things for the baby. I don't know what to do, I keep getting pushed aside at the child support office and I need somebody that knows what they are doing to help me. The problem is I don't know anyone that can seem to help me out in this general area. I don't know anyone that will help me in any area of these custody or child support things. So I feel alone, stranded, and again stuck. Plus my house is starting to get to me, not just the being stuck in it thing, but the fact my son won't let me put him down long enough to get anything accomplished. My laundry is piling up again, and my dishes get behind, and I have to figure out how to get the living room put together properly. Anyway, I just keep telling myself the same thing I always have, God has a plan and he will guide me down the right path. Everything will work out the way it is supposed to in the end. Do you ever feel like your world is caving in on you or all around you. If you have just know, it will get better, it always seems to find away of doing so when you least expect it.